One Day I’ll Introduce Myself to my Mom

I will say “Hello” to her. I will tell her my name. The name of the real idea of me. I will not lie.

I want her to one day know who her daughter is and how she came to be. She has a right to know. She is my Mother.

The person that she knows according to her isn’t really me. Some of it is, but not all. A long time ago I created an image of myself on the right side of my brain.

I loved my identity. I loved what I saw. I told my image that I wanted to be just like her. I looked up to her so much that becoming one with her would allow me to be me but the way I always imagined and dreamed.

Call it an improved version of myself. My Momma doesn’t know this version of myself. But I would like for her to know that me. One day! Right now she is not ready and it is safer to just play my role as the daughter she knows.

Some call this the alter ego. After all I am an all around artist, a Renaissance chick. Others may call it crazy, schizophrenia, touched or “Special”!

Many people may not be familiar with it. But those that create, imagine or dream on a class 5 mutant level, already know where I’m coming from.

I love my Mother. She is a beautiful woman, a Holiness woman. It will be a beautiful day when I introduce myself to her. It will compare much like, but not quite like, being born again.

She may not hold me as she did when I was a baby, but the hug will be genuine.

I already know that some people reading this might for a second think that this other version of me is bad or negative in some way, but I’m not at all.

Have you ever imagined being who you are in another way? Not like someone else, more like someone else and that someone else just so happens to be you. It may be complicated to understand for some, but for those who have an open mind about it, it’s very feasible.

The stories that I will share with my Mom will be grand. It will be like an adventure that she’s reading from a book and after hearing it all she will be in awe and I think she will like that version of me.

I would never get rid of the one she knows though. To shun that version all together would be selfish. That version of me is the strongest connection that she has with that me.

But one day, one day, one day, she will know. Signs around me will let me know. They always do. I will stay forever watchful.

-LeXXah Drew It-

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My Kids Make Me HAPPY!!!

The truth is, I don’t have any kids, at least not at the moment, but, they show do make me HAPPY!!!

It’s the thought that counts. I love kids. It is my dream to one day have children. I feel that it is a Blessing and I see the value of having a big family.

I come from a big family, so it is an inspiration.

Happy LeXXah Drew!

A Good feel & a Good Look

It will be so cool and unique to see what features, characteristics & personality attributes my kids take from me.

I feel that I have so much to offer to my future kids and I know they are not here yet or have not been activated, but I love them to death. #CHEESE!

And yes, I already have the names picked out. It’s exciting, super exciting.

I pray about them because I don’t just think about the here and now, but my future as well. It means alot to me to think about my next moves down the road.

That includes taking care of myself as best as I can because the health of the child has a lot to do with the health of the mother. Not only that, being in a solid financial position to take care of my kids and provide them with opportunity moreso than what I have now is imperative and high priority on my list. I want to bring my kids into this world in the best situation possible all the way around the board. What parent in their right mind wouldn’t??

If anybody asked me, “What Makes You Happy?” other than God, Jesus, my immediate family, my kids make me happy!!!!!

And the day that it comes, I’ll be even happier.

-LeXXah Drew It-

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